Madness. Apparently it seems I'm so caught up in my thoughts and have totally gone bonkers from all the pressure of it. I've never found myself so involved in something like this so emotional or dramatic whatever suits the situation, I admit it's my first. I've never been so fed up with myself. I've been having sleepless nights since Christmas eve, and it's taking a toll on me. I just learned something new about myself though, that I tend to eat a hell lot when I get into this state. Also for instance the first few words that came out of Shahrir's mouth when I saw him today was that I looked pale. I couldn't make sure of it myself cause there wasn't a mirror nearby. -.- What do I look like, a vampire? haha. Which leads me to the next topic;

Twilight. I watched it a couple of days ago and what's with all the disappointment? It was alright (remember my theory and I haven't read the book)! I thought it's worth the ticket money, also the storyline is something very unique as compared to other love stories. I mean it's always about one human battling for his raging love for another human, but this. This is vampires. Very interesting point of view for a change. haha. Although I guess it's dpdp, as always (Quoted from Cass :P). But what got me hyped up (sorta) for Twilight was when I was checking the soundtrack at HMV Heeren while waiting for the screening time, and I saw MUSE's Supermassive Blackhole as one of the track! The first track to it in fact. Bloody hell, all my hopes shot right up for Twilight that I was starting to get paranoid it would disappoint me too. Hahaha. But the latest hit "Decode" by Paramore totally go me HOOKED. And I mean hooked like it's playing like a broken record in my mind, and whenever I pick up my guitar I will definitely, instinctively, play the "unreal" riff from Decode. And the acoustic version of it is nothing short of brilliant. It is by far the best Paramore has to offer, for me. Which leads me to another topic again;

Holidays are nearly over, ZOMG! But it's alright, I've got one HUGE THING to look forward to next year. TALENT QUEST '09! For those who are already lost on wth am I talking about, visit here. Exactly what you're thinking. My band is participating! TOTALLY GOT ME EXCITED AND PUMPING MAN! HAHAHA. That's cause this is the first time the band has ever decided to take a higher and serious step in the local music industry. So it's all very new to me and most others. Thus, I pray that we will benefit from the experience and at least make it through the auditions (which is this Sunday, 5th Jan). But heck, we're aiming all the way! WOOHOO! I'll introduce you to the band first.

Band name: Decent Outbreak (D.O.)
Formation date: Unconfirmed
Consists of:

Shazlin (Vocalist) - my primary school ex-classmate, best friends since then

Shahrir (Rhythm Guitarist) - Shazlin's current schoolmate

Josiah (Drummer) - Shi Hng's ex-colleague's friend

Shi Hng (Bassist) - my secondary school ex-classmate for all 4 years, my chinese brother from another mother

Syazwan (Lead Guitarist) - Me, of course


No sorry but unfortunately I won't be putting any pictures up for recognititon and yes, female vocalist. Inevitably, apparently, we cover Paramore songs (especially Decode! WAHAHAHA). Most of the genres we cover are punk/pop/rock/alternative. However our influences vary widely among the individual band members. Shazlin and Shahrir are pretty into the same thing, punk/rock/alternative. Josiah's into acid jazz. Shi Hng's is punk/rock/alternative/screamo/metal. Mine would be progressive rock/classical/alternative/pop. Which is good for the band I think, because of the wide exposure of range of music that we have that we can and hopefully might be able to blend and mix the variety to see fit in creating our originals. Currently we have 2 originals. One is fully complete while the other has the guitar/vocals/piano parts down. We have never performed live yet, that is why hopefully through the competition we can gain valuable experiences and opportunities. If we ever make it through the auditions that is.

All in all, with all the frustrating thoughts messing up my mind I'm glad I have the band as a distraction. I tried to get a job for the same reason but to no avail. The band is all I have now. Now I see why they say your band is a disfunctional family (quoted from the loading screen of Guitar Hero III). Hahaha. This Sunday huh. Then let's do this. (:

P.S. I found the trailer to the movie "Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence" that I mentioned in a recent post. I'm gonna just put it here in case you're interested. hahaha. It's um... weirdly interesting.

Labels: holidays, movies, music, thoughts

For those who know, that it is more than meets the eye. Like everything else in life. Merry Christmas everyone and a Happy New Year. :D

I don't know if you even visit my blog, but I thought it's just better if I let it out there, but not really. If you know what I mean. Hah. I doubt you even care about me la. Nvm. Never have I been so serious or so sure of what I want. Never has a girl taught me to love unselfishly, yet taught me how deep this love can cut and hurt you at the same time. Have you ever loved to such a large extent that you confuse yourself in the end? You want to be with her so much because you love her, but in the end you love her so much that you don't care if you're with her or not, but only care if she remains happy in her life whatever that takes. I'm getting those kinda effed up feelings right now. Not only that but also I think about how am I supposed to put up with all the other "cute" guys already after you. You can be with anyone, but I can't be with any other.

I don't know how more obvious my feelings for you can get, but I hope you see it sooner or later that I'm the one who wants to be with you. I've been there for you and known you for 9 months without even realising it. I doubt you even care or realise it yourself. I've seen friends come and pass, like waves washing on and off your shore. There are those waves who return of course. But I've been with you like the sun. Just like the sun is still there even if it sets and you can't see, I'll come around to shine again. lol Syaz you're getting all cheesy. Regarding that night on Christmas eve, you cannot imagine how I felt la. If you still don't understand why I'm so agitated, you can ask me yourself personally. If you even care. I had plans just so you know first. But I guess I don't matter as much, do I? I feel like such an idiot that night. I find it hard to believe you, but I do. And I'm sorry for everything wrong that I've done and said to you that might have ruined the one thing you've highly anticipated all year... Sorry.The song you're most probably listening to now (if you're playing my playlist here) is Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence by a composer named Ryuichi Sakamoto. It's a beautiful piece that got him famous, written long ago for a movie titled like the piece itself. I haven't watched the movie myself, but I find the song soothing to listen to if you're stressed out, having problems or just wanna be in peace. I should've already sent you this song, if I didn't that means I don't like you. Wahaha.

Labels: holidays, thoughts

I want to watch Twilight. HAHAHA. I know, you're probably sick of hearing this by many others already. But seriously, it seems interesting. The trailer at least. I haven't read the book myself so I'm basically going in with no expectations. Maybe that's why many others find it disappointing or not as good as they expected it to be, because they've read the book. So my advice to you is, don't read the book first?

It's pretty much similar to Harry Potter's case if you look at it this way. Comparing the book to the movie... yeah, you know.

Also I've just watched Sky of Love, a Japanese movie recommended to me by a Japanese girl wannabe friend of mine. It's the best non-english movie I've ever seen. To think about it, it's the only non-english movie I've ever seen. Nonetheless the movie is great. The whole stretch of it. If the girls ever feel like shedding a tear (or rather a stream of tears), this is the movie to catch. For guys? I don't know, just watch. It might teach you a thing or two about love I hope.

LASTLY, the 3rd movie I'm gonna talk to you about is The Day The Earth Stood Still! But I'm not gonna talk to you about it in this post, because it's gonna be loooong. Hahaha

Instead I'm gonna put some pictures up which I'm supposed to EONS AGO.
Enjoy.

Labels: holidays, movies, school

alamak. There's totally no time nowadays to blog... I've only got time to write half-written posts, only ending up adding onto the post each passing day cause I always have something else more important to do mid-way through.

oh yeah, abt the post that I have promised to dedicate to that special someone (you know who you are), I'll write it some other time alright? I need my mind to be mint fresh so I can write a perfect post about you. Haha. (:

School's started. It did on Wednesday. I'm sure like everyone else, the first day in a new class would mean a rather intense/quiet day naturally. And I couldn't help but smile when I sat at my group with my new team, in a new class. Don't you feel that odd/funny feeling? Haha. I just couldn't help it, I pretty much smiled to myself while glancing around or simply staring at my laptop. Also I sorta laughed to myself also, no thanks to Cass. We were chatting online, and I pretty much made her look like a fool smiling to herself too in her class. It was just so funny. Anyway, I never knew I miss W14E

SO MUCH

until I met them again at the very first breakout on the first day. Lol. There's no class like it, and there will never be. Sadly, that class will be like a once-in-a-lifetime kinda thing. Cause we will never be together again, doing the things we used to do and love to do ever again, as a class. Again. Ever! For the rest of our poly lives! Very sad. SO it's important that we catch up with each other VERY often to keep in touch. Although by the end of Fri, the new class is already starting to warm-up to each other and that's a good sign. I'm certain that by the end of next week, the class would be comfortable enough. Hopefully.

Also on Wed, jam practise with the band after school at SP. Went rather well, better than the previous one at least. Shazlin has an iPhone! Sheesh...

Just came back from Geylang just now. Bought a heck load of stuff. My mom just grabbed anything she thinks she needs and my dad is just grabbing all the snacks/food. I just bought my baju kurung today as well. Haha. I just can't wait for Hari Raya! I'm not sure exactly why but I'm actually looking forward to it.

Btw, new song I found:




Save Our Souls - Electrico

A man looks at his son with a sad look upon his face
He doesn’t cry

He sits there on the street within his eyes they’re showing you
The reason why

Where have you gone? Gone away, leaving us in the same tragedy
Won’t you stay? I don’t know where to go... I don't know where to go…
please say to God we don’t know where to go to save our souls

Hope falls from the sky on iron wings, But it don’t ever hit the ground
People scatter /scramble everywhere
But all they see is the barrel of a gun

Where have you gone? Gone away, leaving us in the same tragedy
Won’t you stay? I don’t know where to go... I don't know where to go…
Please say, to God, we don’t know where to go to save our souls.



OK. I know I'm "VERY SLOW" but I've been looking for this song ever since I heard it being played on the radio in the gym at Tampines, and I instantly got drawn to it. It's such an emotive song. The last time I ever experienced this was when I listened to Starlight - Muse for the first time on ET's iPod. I got so hooked to it. Listened to it till his iPod HUNG! HAHAHAHA. No really I'm serious. I had it on repeat. Haha!

Chao people

Labels: holidays, music, school